What really eats away at me is...

Well, I don't remember. I had an idea, but I lost it, so I'll have to talk about the second subject that I DO remember. I remember the second but not the first because I thought up the introduction to it, so here it goes.

Speaking of eating, today, my family and I went to a restaurant to eat, and I got a big plate of food, and it really got on my nerves when they started teasing me that I could eat and finish it, and it really annoyed me because I knew I probably could. The funny thing is that I can't say anything about it because then they'll get all offended and defensive, and then I'll feel like they're pinning it all on me, as if it's my fault for feeling the way I do, and thinking since they're family, that they'd try to understand, but they never do, so it's not like I'm going to hold a grudge or anything </sarcasm>.

But it got me thinking, because the problem with me is that when I eat, I have a tendency to not eat. What I mean by this is if I'm hungry, I'll eat, but once the hunger is sated, I'll just slow my eating or stop, so I never actually eat until I'm full very often. So today, that sort of happened, and I had eaten almost all of my plate. I really had just a small pile left, that I could have easily finished, but since I was playing on my DS Lite, and I wasn't hungry anymore, I was just picking at my food. Looking back, I should have just asked to save it for later, because I love eating leftovers, or I should have just plain finished it, but you know how teenagers are. So my mother and brother think I have a small stomach and they'll keep on teasing me. I hate being teased by my family, even if they're just joking. I remember a while ago, when I was still in elementary school--1st to 3rd grade--a something I wanted on my wish list was "respect". Needless to say, no one understood it or paid heed to it, but that's all in the past; no grudge here.

...I actually don't hold grudges. I think. Never mind, I'm not sure.

Actually, that kind of reminds me. I do this weird thing where I wish people would recognize the work I do and stuff, but when they actually do, I start acting all humble etc. You know those people. I guess I'm one of them? I try not to be, but I guess the thing is, when they actually say it, it doesn't sound so impressive to me, so it isn't. Actually, thinking back, what they praise me on is different from the stuff I wish they'd notice. It's getting late, so ABRUPT ENDING TIMEEEE!!! :O

Actually, I say actually a lot ;O
The Onion Cat